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[15 Aug 2010|11:20pm] |
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Saturday , 140810
hello everyone , i have been feeling like shit for 3 days. Sweetie had food poisoning then sis , now its me. although mine can be considered as minor compared to theirs but i felt terrible.
Been very lazy do long post nowadays, maybe i'll just use alittle photos and descriptions so it'll tell more and i can type less. :D
Saturday , finally went to civil service club to see daddy play badminton, sweetie was there too!. Been ages since i made my appearance infront of my relatives and daddy's friends - first question they ask " how come u become so dark (tanned) ?"
please tell me how do i answer such question, i mean obviously i went under the sun to tan ? or got sunburn ? what do they expect me to reply? that i change race /ethnic group ? haha really damn dumb.
Snacked after tanning!
after that, went to nankhon thai place @ kovan's after that. drama happened between sis and her bf causing tension between all of us , then she sulked and left.
headed down to city hall with sweetie (this time without a car) to get my BB hello kitty cover! i find it so cute! but not until i found another on ebay now ):
i wanna get this!
but have to wait till my current one to wear off or till i feel that i am ready to let go of the spare cash i have in hand :/
Sunday 150810
Vomited and lao sai like there is no tomorrow. waited for 3 days , only today i went to see a doc. wanted to go to A&E to get a jab. Only to realize that the waiting time is gonna be damn long so went to a 24 hr clinic with sweetie and GUESS WHAT. the doc din wanna give me a jab too ):
feeling so hungry the whole day . UNTIL NOW. but everytime i order something nice , after 4-5 spoons i get so full. and if i force it in i will feel like puking. ):
hopefully this virus will GO AWAYYYY!
my supper + my super hungry face :/
 
just received ridzuanna's fb photo tag, which i found some photos quite funny and since its a private album i decided to put some on my blog,
hahaha its really damn ridiculous camwhore . HAHA
Getting sleepy nao peeps! i'll do the rest another day! :D
GOODNIGHT efi-laine-fe !
tmr's gonna be a looooooooooonnnnnnnnnnngggggggggg day ! gonna work in the morn and meet my secondary frens @ noon - wooh!
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[06 Aug 2010|01:10am] |
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my eyelids are magnetic now, and i am fantasizing about quarter pounder .
school work has never been a stressful issue to me because i couldnt be bothered much most of the time, but now i feeel like SHIT with work piling on top of one another. i have not been sleeping for a day , okay make that two plus tonight. fuck it.
later will be my school camp/bbq/movie with my classmates and teacher , not forgetting seeing some big shot in the morning. weekends planned out for me , but sadly hy is not included in it much .bcos we have our individual plans.
right now i need to get away
hopefully saturday - DRRRRRRRRINK AHHHHH.!
i believe karma will hit on fucktards one day , *spastican claps*
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| im speechless towards you. |
[05 Aug 2010|12:57am] |
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i just wanna talk to the one i love, so badly . but i failed.
i sincerely thank all my friends for being there for me this week. it has been a real rollercoaster for me, be it emotionally or physically.
Once again, thank Q so much gaiz for being there. i really appreciate it.
i felt that i have grown up after so much intense drama and knowing how to deal with situations. i guess sometimes things are not beyond our control . even if it is my fault or not, i accept it , swallow it down and start anew - no grudges .
Disappointment.
It is the first time i felt so disappointed in someone that i thought loved me. infact, i felt that we have grown apart, not because of the time strain but because of the word, negligence.
Negligence - not because you are not there for me , but because it is clear that what ever happens , u will just think i am alright and that i can take care of myself . but the fact is that i am not.
i am speechless towards you . when i see u call , or when i receive text messages. i always dont know what to reply, because i know that the conversation is gonna end with 2 or 3 messages later. Im tired of catching up with u and for u.
Things doesnt happen when we are stress. things happens when we dont know how to manage our time and set our priorities and balance them , hence the other party has to suffer with u and i think that is not fair. clearly this shows alot.
I know what i am talking about now, and i know what IS important now is to study for my final lap - my paper is tmr.
i just cant seem to let things go , i cant pretend nth happened - the fact is that i am not happy. assuring me now is not gonna help.
nothing is gonna help except if i just bottle things like last time i guess.
again, im gonna screw up this paper . fuck it.
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| i need some comfort. |
[26 Jul 2010|09:38pm] |
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it has only been two days and i can see whats gonna happen in years to come.
i cant achieve ur expectations, im only a normal girl. im not a saint , i cant always make u happy.
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tell me what are we doing now . please.
tell me how to feel.
tell me how can we address this problem.
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[25 Jul 2010|09:06pm] |
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( all thanks to time of the month visit )
i feels like shit the whole day.
i'll do anything for a hang out with anyone , i feel so alone ):
even b is not free for me ! ): dont even wanna mention hy ):
BIG sigh.
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| JAY is my idol. |
[25 Jul 2010|01:05am] |
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Just got home from jay chou's concert! WOOTS . i enjoyed alot with sweetie and also with sis and her bf.
WOAH, really made the $$ worth , its really damn good. (:
set aside all the excitement,
im now waiting for sweetie to shower so we can sleep @ the same time. Today was really a tiring day , reached home @ 4ish yesterday , managed to sleep until 10 then daddy woke me up to fix the teevee cables . after that did my project powerpoint . took a 15 min nap and realized that i need to prepare for the concert. SO , the whole of today i didnt get much sleep. on top of that, i feel so moody and fatigue, i guess its the time of the month soon, and i tink my moodswings this month wont be as bad as the last :/
i can feel it! this month is just the very "no mood to do anything " kind of feeling. not the raging kind :D
Feel so bloated after eating the 6pcs spicy nuggets. Not that fantastic, but quite enjoyable. upsized my meal too.
Now im so full, and looking at my tummy. i decided to go on a jog tmr.. if i have a little time , i shall drop by the pool to tan too.
Recently i had been obsess with tanning. i dont know why ? but i like the burnt feeling, especially when i get more brown. :O
alrighty , my eyes are diminishing cos im typing in the dark , as usual.
Gonna wait for sweetie's night message and off to bed i go !
GOOD NIGHT efi-laine-fe (:
 elaine.
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[21 Jul 2010|07:24pm] |
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feeling so bored now, trying to do my oncology slides and waiting for hy too.
after recieving a text from my teacher that my make up practical is this coming friday ( that is , tmr's tmr ) i feel more shitty. Not only that , but also alot of shitty feeling, like i got so many things that i wanna have! but i cant stand the waiting part, you know, the saving up part. OH SIGHS.
Eyes on the television now, listening to chinese news , talking about floods, trees falling . WASSUP WITH THE TREES falling subject? On the way to school, the cabby driver couldnt stop talking about trees and how they kill people. it is good to update me with the current affairs, but not to the extent that the whole damn journey he was expecting a response from me . and all i said was "umm ,ummm, umm" and even put on my sun glass so as to not maintain eye contact , hoping that the cold replies would shut up up but no. he was more ON! about it. -.-
bahhhh , its over already . so in conclusion , when a taxi driver nags, please look away , or pretend that u are on mp3 - not listening,
Another thing to add. i have been dreaming about ALOT of food these days , not once or twice but more than that.
WHY ?
i have no idea man , just 3 days ago . i dreamt that i was eating shabu shabu buffet. ironically , i have never eaten that before in my entire life.
i think yesterday or during my nappy i dreamt of eating sushi buffet and during nappy just a few hours ago, i dreamt of eating JUMBO CRABS.
hahaha and i always wake up feeling hungry . ):
looking at my tummy i feel like killing myself. it used to be flat , now i have a little pouch infront. ARGHHHH. so disturbing..... and im so lazy to go for jogs now too. ELAINE NEEDS TO HAVE SELF CONTROL. ( think full , think full )
oh and i might try using the milo and boiled veggie theory , it LOOKS like it works wonders. just that i don have the time to boil my own
veggies. haha, i wonder if i go on a carrot diet , will it help ? D:
Talking about weight, i REALIZED that my face is damn round, just that luckily its not big.
LOOK --->
i think the only thing that could cover is my fringe. .
so sad right. and i cant figure which face shape am i too, HOW TO CUT HAIR LIDDAT?!
normally ppl will say " oh heart shape suits long fringe , high forehead suits bangz" den me lehhh!!!
okay i gtg now, booking BBQ ): sian
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| im confused. |
[20 Jul 2010|11:17pm] |
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Things are not the same as i thought it would be ):
i feeling so upset and disappointed.
it came to a point where i dont know what else to feel anymore. it might be a one time thing or some character differences, but it hurts so much that i dont know when will it recover.
its really sad to see how things turn out to be after so long, im not blaming or pointing out mistakes here but , i guess overall , the problem lies with me. all i can say that i'm sorry for not being the person that u want me to be or not up to ur standard. but from the bottom of my heart , i did try and am still trying. It is really , very tiring if whatever i put in fails.
it has really been awhile since i feeel so upset , and trust me the feeling sucks like hell. so what if im out with my friends, so what if we pretended nth happened, so what that i took a nap and wake up to a new day. i will still continue to doubt myself. i have never doubted you from the beginning till now, every time we have an argument, i blame myself for all the things that i said and done.
i managed to stop doubting myself , but things just went back to square one . i really do think that im not the person you want me to be and i dont know what should i do next.
maybe tell me ?
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| all the lovers. |
[20 Jul 2010|12:50am] |
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i don't want nobody else, said the hearts all over the world tonight.
whats the worst thing that could happen to you laine, take a chance tonight. take a seat tonight and watch the perfect stranger and know what to say, learn how to explore and win the heart.
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| ROTTING @ HOME with the hope of seeing you. |
[19 Jul 2010|01:01pm] |
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im suppose to have my pract test today. :/ as u can see, im not in school :/ :/
I wanna get rid of some of my screenshots saved in my desktop, make a guess who did i draw!
HAHA its himmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ( look below )
i havent been updating my blog since forever. There are so many things happening , and many things happened. well cut things short , i dont wanna repeat either. Am looking forward to alot of things that are coming up! first would be - clare's birthday ! then come my husband's (jay chou) conccert which is on this comingg saturday ! i know right, so cheena. haha but HEY, his songs are nice alright, so soothing and oriental . I always listen to his tunes when i cant get to sleep :/ oh and right after , its my birthday! yay , because it calls for a celebration. BOO ): because im turning older, equals to a year nearer to my grave. hahaha. and then lets see... what else. OH YA! my holidayz. after , will be my exams and off to my probation period in the hospital , and then 3 years of bond i serve. okay , talking about this, my heads fills up with vulgarities AGAIN.
BUT BUT, i really made up my mind , i really wanna travel to somewhere before i officially step into the working life and look all haggard and ugly. i wanna go for a cruise! or a get away to some resort :D :D i really hope that i can fulfill this request !
im feeling so bored @ home. have been having diarrhea since yesterday , and also stressing about my practical exam today. which i din turn up. Well, therefore i would have to get an MC. that means i need to QUEUE up @ polyclinic. i really dont want to , but i have to save $$. im so damn broke, and there is so many things i wanna buy.
hmmmm. since im so free , might as well go roam online and plan my shopping list. later. hehe, OH but first, i really would love to get a camera. i so wanna take photos and make my efi-laine-fe into a photoblog, so i dont have to type SO MUCH to make it lively. :/ and secondly , i like the different play of colours that a DSLR has, the contrast and the effects, u know what i mean?
getting gadgets are so not worth it, but i also am aiming for a Polaroid. HEH. i know, it is redundant and useless - this is what everyone will think . BUT look at it from another perspective, u can keep those photos on special events and its INSTANT. im just day dreaming right now, haha cos i haven calculate my budget and spendings yet.
i feel so lazy right now, watching channel 855 dramas on cable teevee and then repeating the SAME show on channel 856. and my cartoon cable teevee is not working , there goes my looney tunes show , pink panther and disney's house of mouse. ):
Just downloaded a few drama serious , one of which is called beautiful people and the everyone is going so crazy for , gossip girls. Seriously , i dont enjoy gossip girls @ all. its such a girl show. maybe thats why i cant appreciate much.
i shall proceed on to some dramas now and maybe iron a few piece of my clothings, then head down to polyclinic and join the forever-never-ending queue @ SGH. damn!
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| im seeing you tmr! to be exact, about 15 hrs time? (: |
[05 Jul 2010|11:31pm] |
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COS ITS ALL MISUNDERSTOOD
JUST FINISH PLAYING A LITTLE MODERN WARFARE WITH SWEETIE AND MY EYES ARE GOING HAYWIRE ALREADY ..
i was testing how to printscreen so i can printscreen with sweetie in the future, haha JUST NICE yibin drew me a bunny after he saw my PM on msn. hahahaha . i laughed for quite awhile, looks so quirky!
Feel so lethargic for school today , don have the mood for any lessons, din bring almost all my notes. Came home, went for a jog, omg. u wouldnt believe what happen.. i cant last even for 500m. i panted like craaaazy and my right lung hurt and was damn tight. i guess i have to change sports , swimming perhaps ? i feel like trying rock climbing though but i dont know if i will look very buffed and big size b'cos of all the muscles built up.
Sweetie left for msia about 10 mins ago ): i hope he comes back fast!.. i was at my most stress period about 1 hr ago. im doing a report and i just came to realise that i need to "brush up" on my english. YA LAH, i know i may be very singlish ): and i cant stand it but i have to open a dictionary AND a thesaurus while doing my work haha, they became my best friend for 2 days! im feeling quite sleepy at the moment ):
but im waitind for sweetie to come back so we can sleep @ the same time ( although my school starts @ 8 tmr, and i cant be late again!!!)
omg talking about this, im so damn angry with myself. i cab to school again today! WTFEUXXX!?!?!?!
i cant believe this, im so broke already i still waste $$. damn it, i really need to pick out wad to wear the night b4 and bathe a little faster . YES and i will start this habit tmr *promise*
and and tmr's lesson will be much earlier but will be dismissed earlier too. sigh, i dunno if i should go for the practice class or not. but on the other hand, i want to finish sweetie's report too. im so caught in between. knowing me well, i will sure find sweetie. sigh, guess i will just have to rush all my skills during the morning class x(
wooooohooops !
my oreo Mcflurry just arrived at my place and im gonna munch it! my jogging has gone to waste today, not only did i not jog, but also i ate one pau , one lor mai kai and a pack of chai fan . fuck . ):
fatty days coming my way, binge-ing thanks to my mense too. AHHHHHHHH...
GOODNIGHTS, IM GONNA PLAY ROCK RIOT NOW `
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[05 Jul 2010|12:51am] |
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*burp*
just ate macs and im full to the brim :O
although i stayed @ home the whole of sunday , i still feel happy. my mood is quite good today!!
:D :D
im happy i have you by my side :*
GOODNIGHT EVERYONE !
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[04 Jul 2010|06:03pm] |
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I JUST NEED SOMEBODY TO LOVE , NO ONE ELSE.
assignments, assignments, assignments
stress , stress , stress.
NEED.TO.JOG
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[03 Jul 2010|01:01pm] |
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Day two of waking up to a bad sorethroat, urgh. sucks.
im feeling very unwell mentally and emotionally ): cos its also , you know , time of the month . but this time its worse. i have never felt like this before. my moodswings are extremely bad and it wont go away. usually it takes an hr or two for me to recover but this time . its like a roller-coaster. it affected the people around me too. im sorry ): it was so serious that i deleted my fb account. i wasnt even thinking straight. :/
now i cant play ROCK RIOT. fuck myself.
One week has passed since the first day of semester 2 in poly life. im alright with the curriculum and all but i also hope that the next holidays are nearing at the same tiime. Honestly as im blogging now, im very mentally unstable. i have alot of mixed emotions in me. dont worry its nth to do with any stress from school , family or r/s . its just the hormones problem i guess. i feel very dead , tired, sad , confused and very irritated with every thing i see and hear . i feel abit psycho :/ and im so uncomfortable with my hair and everything.. you know what i mean? like when there are times u just feel so fat and ugly and just feel so disgusted with how u look ? YEA , thats how i feel now , exactly.
Abit of flash back , caught karate kid with sweetie on thurs @ bishan. i must say its a really great show, left me an impression :) not much of a plans this weekends i guess, he is pretty busy catching up with his never-ending-work. and im just sitting here @ home waiting for him to date me out. HAHA, no lah, not that pathetic , gonna meet up with my gfs later b'cos clare has a choir concert thing going on in church @ around 8.
met up with jocelyn yest too , did alot of catching up . its was quite a fruitful meetup (: at least after a long while of bailing we get to catch up , i got no complains.
alright, i really need to have some rest, my head is spinning and my throat feels as if it got lighted up by a lighter , :*coughxxxz*
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[18 Jun 2010|12:17pm] |
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rotting at home on a friday afternoon , watching daddy pack and clean the house with my lappy on with all my pre-downloaded movies.
what a way to pass friday.
facial at 5 with mummy,
gonna continue rotting now ):
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[18 Jun 2010|02:06am] |
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WILD WILD WET , with my gfs and sweetie today.
IT WAS CLARE'S WWW VIRGIN EXPERIENCE. hahaha and i could tell she had funnnnnn :D
WOAH, tiring but damn fun !! my throat hurt alot after all that crazy screaming. im feeling very tired naaaaaao so i will just summarize everything and cramp them here before i sleep. Honestly it really feels better to do a quick update of post b4 sleeping , TRY IT ! okay here goes,
so where was i ....
oh, ya, WWW , then went to have dinner @ Changi V's , saw clare's bf - my first time! or rather soon-to-be bf . he's nice, just a little beng looking :D but still, NAIZE. (
went slacking with sweets, fell aslp - suppose to modern warfare but failed. and yes, as expected, sweetie is hooked onto that game, AGAIN.
okok my eyes are depleting cos im typing in the dark.
gonna watch initial D on my lappy and snooze off!,
tmr i WILL make it a pt to joggggggggggg , I wanna joggggg everyday during the holzzzzzzzzz.
GOODNIGHTS! (:
oh oh and smth to share, (in sweetie's night msg yest.. )
: " baby piggy now should be sleeping like a little small pork , im gonna swallow you down and keep u in me "
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH , i keep thinking of it and laugh b4 sleeping, its ironically funny but sweet. i dunno whether to laugh and to be confused.
I LOVE YOU KOALASWEETIE! <3
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